The Three Symptoms of Disobedience

Tuesday night, I drank my very last coffee.
When I say last, I am done with it, and I will tell you why.

1. Restlessness
2. Adrenaline rush, not because I was exercising, but because I had to much caffeine in my body
3. A very upset stomach.

You see Monday night the Lord convicted my heart about how much I spend on mediocre things. Such as coffee.
I spend probably about $25 a week on it.
I could save that money, have $100 extra a month and do something else with it.
I have been praying for the past few months how I can put my money towards God's kingdom.
Me and Judah tithe, and support a compassion international child in India, and all though that was a lot for my husband and I when we first got married, it seems to me like we can do more on a regular basis. We are asking for more of God in our lives, and we are seeing how God is answering us.

Here is what I read the other day.
Luke 18:18-29

18A certain ruler asked him, "Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?"
19"Why do you call me good?" Jesus answered. "No one is good—except God alone. 20You know the commandments: 'Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not give false testimony, honor your father and mother.'[b]"
21"All these I have kept since I was a boy," he said.
22When Jesus heard this, he said to him, "You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."
23When he heard this, he became very sad, because he was a man of great wealth. 24Jesus looked at him and said, "How hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God! 25Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God."
26Those who heard this asked, "Who then can be saved?"
27Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God."
28Peter said to him, "We have left all we had to follow you!"
29"I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God 30will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life."


Well this hit me very hard.
I am more concerned about what I have.
I want to live my life giving to others, not concerned about what I eat, or drink, with what I own and do not own.


The other night when I was restless, almost having a heart attack, and sick to my stomach, it was because of the coffee drinking late at night, but it was also because I choose to buy that coffee for myself.
Not that drinking coffee is all that bad, (except for when you experience all of the above), it's just that God asked me not to buy it, but I shut that small voice up deep inside, the Holy Spirit, and did what I wanted.
I suffered the natural repercussions of late night coffee drinking, but only because I brought it up on my self.
But I was thinking about how many times I have experienced,
1.Restlessness
2. Chronic pounding heart
3. sick stomach
because of the disobedience in my life.
Soul searching and Holy Spirit conviction always lead me to repentance.
So what is going on in our hearts?

I know for me, I don't want earthly riches any longer.
In light of God's word,
I would rather give everything I have.
And it's hard to think this, just like the rich man was sad about giving his riches.
I just want to bless people with what God has blessed me with.
Although I don't know what to do with the extra $100 a month,
I know God will be faithful to let me know.
And I am excited, because I want to live for Him, in total obedience, so I don't have to stay up all night with those 3 symptoms because of my disobedience.