My husband's family came into to town today from Washington State.
We met up with them at 5:30am at IHOP and had a huge family breakfast, 12 of us.
I am happy they are back in town, but my heart is sad because well you see...my niece (the only niece I have) seemed to be more excited to see my brother in-law's girlfriend more than me.
As soon as she hopped out of the car, my niece ran to her hugged on her and they put their arms around each other and walked into IHOP together, sat next to each other and giggled and so on forth.
Yes I will be honest, I am jealous, but I am just so sad because I feel like I've lost connection with her. My niece used to like hanging around, but after my bro in-law started to going out with his girlfriend everything changed.

We are all going to go to Cedar Point tomorrow, my two nephews and girlfriend, niece, and my bro along with his girlfriend... I am really scared about going tomorrow because I am afraid I'll be a 5th wheel. I try so hard to fit in, do things with people and I end up being left out and feeling depressed.

I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I do.
It's just me being self-centered.
Pray for me, I want God to change my heart.
I want to be happy where ever He has me, with whom ever He has me, and if that means I make new friends, meet new people, let it be for His glory.

It's easier said than done,
but I am nothing with Christ, but all things I can do through Him who strengthens me.
My heart knows what to do, now I just need to DO IT!